Since being diagnosed with Arterial Thoracic Outlet Syndrome, having my rib bone removed and surgeries to clear a massive blood clot, I went back to work tattooing. I worked on five tattoos to have my arm explode again and had to have the third surgery to remove the clot about three weeks ago. I cleared my schedule and have been focusing on doing reading and healing sessions only as my chest and arm have been healing. Unfortunately, last weekend things got worse than ever and I found myself back in the hospital earlier last week. The blood clot is back and now is extending down to my wrist from the center of my chest. Who knew blood clots could be so big?! I certainly did not.
Long story short, I need another surgery but the surgeries are also making things worse by creating even more scar tissue. It’s highly unlikely that another surgery will help but only make things worse. Needless to say, I’m terrified to tattoo again. At this point there is literally nothing they can do for me. Artery transplants aren’t yet a thing but there is a group of Dr.’s working on this now but they have yet to publish their data. I wish I would have known the signs of this earlier, or that someone would have caught what I’ve been complaining about for years but unfortunately, it was too late. Arterial TOS is very rare and only affects about 1% of people.
Tattooing has been my identity, my passion, my livelihood for many years now. I love tattooing and my tattoo family to my core. As most of you following me know already, I’ve been combining my spiritual gifts along with tattooing for many years. It was the reason I opened Altar, to bring this work forward for the community. I’ve been getting subtle to very loud nudges for years that transitioning into readings and healings full time, is my purpose and path. It’s been really hard for me to listen to myself and these signs that leaving tattooing behind is what I’m supposed to do. I’ve been questioning it for years. My entire life has been built around tattooing and it’s my main source of income.
Going through this excruciating experience I have now fully accepted that this is the way forward and it’s honestly all I’ve ever wanted. It’s taken me a long time to get here but I’m fully ready and very excited to take the leap into being a full time spiritual mentor, teacher, healer and guide. Helping people on their path using my abilities as an intuitive, medium and healer is one million percent my gift and highest service I can give. I often say to my clients that you wouldn’t choose me as your reader or healer if I didn’t have the wheelhouse of experience to be able to see for you, because I have already been there myself. For many of you who already know me, you know I have been through hell and back, far too many times. My life experience is an asset for my clients who I journey for in the liminal spaces.
I’ve come up with a solution for my in progress tattoos, new tattoos and Auragraph tattoos to be completed at Altar. Eric Eaton from Hidden Hand Tattoo has graciously agreed to work at Altar on certain days to help me with this. Eric comes with over 25 years experience and is more than qualified to take on these projects. I feel he is the perfect fit for my clients who would like to continue working with us both at Altar. Kelsi’s books are now open and soon Jena’s will be too, if you want to try and get on their schedules. I do see that one day I may be tattooing again on a much smaller scale, so I’m not ruling tattooing out completely. However, at this time, it is not an option.
I appreciate and I'm very grateful for all my current clients for booking readings and healing appointments with me. It's truly an honor to work with you and I appreciate your trust so much. I’ve opened up more availability as this is now my full time work. It’s a very scary thing to be forced into switching career paths at this time. I know I’m not alone in this as so many of you have been coming in for readings lately around career path and relationship changes. I greatly appreciate all your referrals and helping me spread the word.
I am immensely grateful for the loving and amazing tattoo clients I have had over the years. Thank you! I am also extremely grateful for my colleagues and friends at Altar and Hidden Hand Tattoo. Their love and support has been pivotal in helping me navigate these changes successfully. I’ve been making my way through the list of emailing all my clients. If I haven’t gotten to you yet, I’ll be in contact.
Thanks for reading and again, for all the support. I love you all!